You probably have more than what is necessary. Why desire more money, more objects, more experiences, more people, more followers? Go through elimination.
The moment you wake up is when you lose the fear of death. That is the start of the rest of your life. If you die today, would your transition in peace?
An important realization that happened this week: what happens when you go at life with 110% intensity all the time? You will most likely crash and burn.
There is not a shortage of people in need of help. It can be a close friend or someone you have never met. Who can you serve today?
Go forward and do the work. Breathe. Continue to apply yourself and listen calmly to have proper judgment and rescue yourself back to serenity.
It is impossible to define yourself by your past. All you have available is in the present. When you are present, you know what you should do.